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I had a dream I accidentally hit myself in the face, and it bruised REALLY bad and people asked me if Alex hit me.

And then I went to some house, and the toilets didn’t work and my AP Lit class was there and Adam had to poop outside and for some reason I was in charge of the bag of pee and I got it everywhere. And somehow I kept it a secret the first time, then the second time everyone got all mad at me.

Then Alex and I went to the mall.

What.　

If Alex’s car doesn’t work tomorrow I might weep.
I took an AP Bio practice test and got a 3. And I still have to do math that was due Thursday and study Biology until my eyes fall out until the 14th because I really want at least a 4 so I don’t feel stupid forever.
My skin is really itchy still, that lady didn’t know anything about my medical past and inferred incorrectly because something is wrong. And Marc didn’t fill my prescriptions.
My brother left home again after telling my mom he tried really hard not to. I had no idea he actually had a problem and all this time I stood by like nothing was wrong because I figured it wasn’t a big deal when in reality if I had a backbone for once in my life he could be home right now.
I keep tasting pepper from that beef jerky and I just remembered I still haven’t eaten since 11am.
I’m going to bed now, then getting my hair done, then getting my dress fitted, then riding the Freak Out since Alex pinky promised, then seeing my favorite band ever live in concert because his car will work.
okay.　

I wonder if I look like/act like/sound like/have talents like/have goals like/have interests like my mom or my dad.

o_o

It is fucking 9:30 at night. I do not have school tomorrow. I am 17 years old. You can go fuck yourself, I want to fucking leave.

My new pants have a giant hole in them.

I tried to make three sets of plans today. All of them fucking failed.

I’m so frustrated right now I want to weep.

Shower and laundry and either Grandma’s then study date with M-Towe or Shannon’s safehouse, depending on transportation.

I did really well on the practice AP Bio test so far being that I barely studied last semester. (+)

I understand less and less of math every day. (-)

AP Lit was bad. (-)

But not as bad as I anticipated. (+)

And we started poetry. (+)

What an eventful Friday night.
I made fart sounds and danced for three hours with the 2 year old that I babysat.
And I also changed my theme.
And I’m greatly debating sleeping soon.

Unless someone wants to be a doll and spark up some conversation.

My brother just told me to go to The Gathering with him.

Before he even remembered that I used to go to it.

I’m really upset that I have 5 subjects of homework.

This is actually really sweet.

Next week, it’s on.

This is what happens when mommy is away.

I was cool in 8th grade.

Carl got a girlfriend for Christmas c:

So I cleaned my room.

Sorta.

But, I found this thing.

It’s a hole.

In my wall.

Right below my window.

It’s not huge, you can’t see outside or anything, but it lets cold air into my room. Right by my bed. Which is why I’m so cold. All the time. When it’s winter. And so hot in the summer. Um. How did no one in this household notice this hole earlier… Because I was focusing on the broken window seal, and this is right below it… So………….

Wat.

This is my room. I’m currently cleaning it. Then got distracted and ‘sorted’ my followers. And now I’m gunna go clean again.